Baby Balance (On doing God's Will)

Despite the fact that it is just past nine pm and my kids have just now finally decided to settle down... I always wanted kids. (There are just times I need a reminder like, "This is the baby that everybody prayed for. This is the baby that everybody prayed for.")

You may find this hard to believe, given the fact that my husband told people that he wanted ten kids (He was, mostly, joking.), but the size of the family never mattered to me. I just wanted kids. I never said I want only one, just three, or ten. Just "I want kids."

It didn't even matter to me if they were biological or not. I would not have been one of those people hell bent on having my own and using tons of invasive procedures to get the job done. (Obviously, I was not hell bent on not having them either.) Before I was even sure of any sort of religious belief I was open to whatever came my way.

Now I would see that as being open to God's will. I just loved kids. Sure, now the fact that they will turn into teenagers frightens me at times (at least if my daughter is anything like I was at thirteen!), but I see how each one of them is a precious gift and how well they fit into our family. Each of them is here for a reason.

I am still open to more. (They just haven't come along yet, despite the fact that many of you assumed I would be pregnant by now. Possible TMI warning-I think it may be because poly cystic is having it's way with me right now.) But I don't feel that I NEED more. There could be reasons God is giving us only three or another one might come along later. Time will tell but I know it will happen in His time and His way.

Just like another birth. The one we celebrate this weekend. What about Mary? Do you think that Mary had her own plans for her life? "Let's see, I'll just marry Joseph and we'll have 2 kids..." Or was she always open to His will? Did Mary have "baby balance"? Was she willing to accept whatever came her way?

"Be done to me according to your word."

There's your answer.

Mary was probably a young teenager and did not quite understand everything that would happen. She probably received negative reactions from family and friends when they heard the news. Did she know how they would react and still say yes?

My question to you is "What do you do when God asks you to do something tough?" Do we say no? Or do we do it even knowing that bad things may happen? It is even worse when He doesn't warn you what those things are. It is tough to blindly say yes to the will of God. Especially hard when God doesn't even make sense. (He still doesn't to me sometimes. I never said I had all the answers. I just know He's real.)

Mary probably knew what people would think of her, but she still did it anyway. But what about her Son dying on a cross? Do you think she knew that part? Or did she blindly say yes not knowing what was to come?

I have no idea what 2012 will hold for all of us. But I do know that I will do what Mary told the servants at the wedding feast to do. I will "do whatever He tells you".